Where do we go from here?

Where do we go from here?

How do we live with the fear.

We are dying every day, being killed everyday

They’re picking us off one by one.

It’s hard for me to see your Son in them,

When they judge me by the color of my skin

How do I move on from here?

I know your word, and it’s truth.

That You can transform even the hardest of hearts

Oh, but Father what if that hard heart is mine.

Because there’s no more grace left inside.

I know that I’m not suppose to hate but every time I wake up there’s a new face that we’re mourning.

There seems no peace in the land, and Father we really need Your healing hand.

I don’t have it in me to love us through this anymore.

It’s hard for me to not keep score because I am so Angry!

And with every lynching they blame me, US, WE.

It’s always our fault, something we were asking for.

“It had to be something they did” I hear them say.

There has to be a reason why their lives were taken away.

Other than the racism that leaks from their pores.

It’s beyond hard to not want to settle the score.

Father God, WHERE DO WE GO FROM HERE!?

I don’t know Lord, I just don’t know.

I want more babies, but I’m nervous.

How can I raise the boys I desire to have in a world setup to kill them off.

How do I birth them without feeling like I’m just leading them to the slaughter.

Just hoping against hope that my sons WILL live. I wish I could say that when my babies are young they’re safe but the hatred of this world has no respect of age.

LORD! WHEEEERREEE DO WE GO FROM HERE!!?

Just like everything else Lord I gather all my concerns, and put them in Your hands.

After all You have the ultimate plans to prosper your people.

But God in the mean time. The in between time. Help me not to hate.

Help me to love. To live it out. To believe in it. To trust that it WILL conquer all.

Because YOUR love has already conquered it all.

So the place that I CAN go is here.

Back to You, trusting You.

Your presence is where I’ll go and where I’ll stay.

Until I can gladly see You face to face.

So many questions I’ll have for You.

And all the answers You’ll have for me.

But until then Lord,

Help us here.